We had our 5th and final ultrasound this morning.
We had 16 follicles measuring at 15 or more, 9 follicles measuring between 10 and 15, and another 14 follicles measuring at less than 10, for a grand total of 39 follicles. Follicles generally need to be between 15 to 20 mm in diameter to be considered mature enough for retrieval. My body has responded incredibly well to the stimulation and maturation drugs and there is a correlation between IVF success rates and the number of eggs retrieved, so we’re hopeful that these are all good signs.
Even with all the good news, there’s still a part of me that wonders when the other shoe is going to drop.
If my body is so primed and ready to make a baby, why hasn’t it happened yet? Every month we tracked ovulation, every failed IUI attempt; why did we come up empty-handed each and every time?
My biggest fear going into this weekend is that they’ll retrieve my eggs and each and every one of them will be worthless. And then what? What’s our next course of action?
I know I need to be positive, and believe it or not I am. I’m over the moon about our ultrasound this morning. I am so excited that this is all finally happening. Months of preparation and hard work are hopefully about to pay off. But there’s a part of me that knows I also need to be prepared. It might not work. And if for some reason it doesn’t, I’m going to be more equipped to deal with it if at least some part of my psyche prepares for a negative result.
Tomorrow I’ll be taking an HCG shot to trigger ovulation. Our egg retrieval will be on Sunday. If you find yourself with a little bit of downtime this weekend, please send some good juju our way. We’ll take all the positive vibes we can get.