PCOS Pity Party: Coming to terms with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome

If you’re reading this, it means I’m finally feeling comfortable enough to share my struggle with the world.  That’s not an easy feat for someone like me, who prides themselves on keeping things close.  But the thing I find most frustrating about what I’m going through right now, is that I can’t find anyone that shares in my pain.

I’ve found blogs posted by other women and some of them are wonderfully uplifting.  I’m not in that place yet.  I’m not going to “Let go and let God”.  I don’t know that I believe God exists.  And if he/she does, why would so many deserving people have such a problem building a family and so many shitty parents seem to have no problem?  The news is constantly littered with stories of child abuse and neglect.  Why do those parents get rewarded with one of the most beautiful gifts in life, one that they clearly take for granted?  It’s not fair and that fucking sucks.

The point of this blog is to share the journey as my husband and I navigate through IUI and IVF in an attempt to start a family together.  I hope you’re able to take something away from my story; whether it hits home or close to it, I hope that it will provide insight into what some couples go through to build their happily ever after.

4 thoughts on “PCOS Pity Party: Coming to terms with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome

  1. auntjooge

    It’s not fair, and it does suck that someone so wanting and willing to love and parent a child is not afforded that opportunity. And, if one subscribes to the idea of God, then one feels doubly defeated. Why the hell would a crack addict be able to have multiple children (who are surely destined for a fucked up life), and a good person like me cannot produce one? What did I do to deserve this? Nothing. Think about it, there is no logic in that particular thought process whatsoever. None. And.. if there were a God would you truly want to produce a child that God could so easily fuck with like he theoretically is with you right now? NO! But, if one subscribes to the idea of nature (genetics being the biggest part) then understand that nature, in all of its glory does not exist like a fairy tale in constant bloom. It has its struggles too. Not mandated by a mythical Mother Nature, but by a complex set of circumstances that are all dependent on the exact timing and chemical combination both genetically and environmentally. It’s so easy to take all that for granted until it becomes difficult. I am so very sorry that you have to go through this love. And I am so touched you chose to share this with me. I just know that however you obtain your dream of a child you will love them even more because you understand what great lengths you went to to bring them into your life and that child will be incredibly lucky to have found you. I love you so very, very much my angel.

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  2. Thanks so much for sharing your journey. I have no idea what lies down that road for me (or even if I want to go down it), but this has been such a learning experience so far. I can’t wait to learn more about PCOS, IUI, IVF, and all the heartaches and headaches that go along with juggling insurance, medical exams, changing your habits, and generally navigating a poorly lit path. There’s so many ways to build a family; thanks for sharing with us your journey toward one.

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